MOVIN' ON UP

I have learned in recent years that you cannot help everyone. Even as much as you try to do for them, they are gonna do what the hell they want no matter what. Even when they know you're heart is in the right place they are selfish and just set in their ways. I think I am learning to accept that. I am no longer routing for the underdog either.

I try and do nice things to HELP people. I think I am alot like my father in that way. When I go camping every year, I take one of Kdawg's friends who doesn't necessarily get to do alot, whether it be just because their families DON'T do anything with them, or they're just not well off, but often BOTH. It's over $150.00 to go camping for labor day weekend- it's an entire music festival and the kids always have a blast. Most of the time people really appreciate that, mainly because it gives them time away from their kids, (lol) but in the case of bringing Kels camping 2 years ago- her mom was overly grateful AND thankful. I bring my neighbor's son and a few of Kdawgs other friends to the movies, roller skating, ice skating and alot of the time if I have extra money, I'll pay if I can. Last weekend her and her two friends went to a magic show with us at the Z. They giggled the whole time.

Some people just don't appreciate that. Perhaps it's because they are selfish and never got to do that stuff as a child, or maybe their jealous that they want THAT with their kids (or perhaps AS kids) or moreso that they don't want YOU to have that with THEIR, often because THEY don't. Maybe I'm totally off course here, but I don't get it at all. People instill alot of trust in me with their kids and I've never proved that I deserve any less. I am good to them, they behave with me and I love having kids around and at the same time Kdawg benefits from it- she gets to have fun with her friends and I get to keep an eye out. Her and her friends never mind having "Kdawg's mom" around. Even tho Ape got on my nerves that same year camping (lol) it was fun to have her to laugh with. She was 16 at the time, she has a dirtbag father and a mother who could care less about her and 5 siblings. She was DELIGHTED to go- SO happy. What a great feeling it was for ME for her to come back and talk about how much fun she had.

Tonight a bunch of us (family) are going to see Monsters Vs. Aliens in 3D at the IMAX. We bought the tickets yesterday so they wouldn't sell out and they are assigned seats. I am bringing our neighbor, L along with us. He doesn't get to do much it seems and he is also an only child (12 y/o). His mom, however is the sweetest lady in the world and really would do anything for you. I am doing it because Kdawg enjoys his company and they go rollerblading together, but I also know he will appreciate it and most of all say a simple "thank you" and that will make me feel good. I like kids with manners, but the story does NOT hold true that you learn alot from one's child by watching their parents. Although my daughter is like me in alot of ways as far as her habits go, it's not always the case. I know several people who have the sweetest kids and they are just rotten and miserable people.

In further news, all the paperwork is in on the house and we are moving forward. I am excited about picking out colors, redoing the kitchen, eventually (after move in) also the bathroom, installing a rug and I have all the money saved that I have to use for all the fixing up. I am SO anxious to get shit done over there! I have all my colors picked out (a general idea not actual names of colors) except Kdawg's room
and I am up in the air about my kitchen color. I am not sure if I want to go light or dark. I know I want a berber rug and I know I want stainless steel appliances. It is going to look wonderful and I can't wait to decorate my fireplace for the holidays and have my family over. OH! And I'm having a big July BBQ and everyone is coming! :)

*jumps up and down*

I need to buy new appliances- the ones in the house are from the 60's- ya know the colors back then? Pea green? Well, mine are that mustardy yellow LOL! The dishwasher and some of the pilots on the stove don't work. I have a stove here, but I'm leaving it cuz it's gas here and not there (yet). Depending on my budget and what Nstar rebates, I may be installing gas as well eventually (summertime). It's going to be a rough May, but I'll get thru it and good things are to come in the end. I am so happy to finally be able to call something "my own" and "home"! Kdawg could not be happier as she's already found there are at least 5 of her friends RIGHT in the general neighborhood! That makes me happy. I have a great kid and I just really want her to be happy.

Saturday we are volunteering at the shelter again, and had I mentioned yet that Kdawg is back in karate? Yeah, wicked pissah! She started last week and the new Sensei let her keep her advanced Greenbelt rank. Lots of things going on in the house these days but they're all positive things! :)

And Saturday night I'm out on the town to Newport, haven't been there in awhile and I know I always have fun going out with Alicia so NO worries there!

Happy Friday!!