BLOGROLLERS?? ANYONE? NEED IMPUT!

I need help updating my links and it seems blogrolling is under some maintenance, well, they have been for awhile. I am impatient.

What do you use to update your links thru another site so you don't have to update them in your template every time???

I'VE BEEN TAGGED

Thanks aLOT SWIRLY!!!

Here are the rules of this meme:

Link to your original tagger(s) and list these rules in your post.
Share seven facts about yourself in the post.
Tag seven people at the end of your post by leaving their names and the links to their blogs.

Let them know they’ve been tagged

Swirly's answers can be found here.

I’m going to tag first:
Jen, Kimmy, Sue OR Charlotte, YSFB, Jana, Brellyk, and Geekwif.

Here’s my list of 7

1. My favorite color is red. Pink runs a close 2nd.

2. I am the biggest sucker for a foreign accent. I love Neela's accent on ER, and her boy toy's, too. You can tell me to go screw in your accent and I'd stand still in awe.

3. If Adam Sandler's in it, I probably own it, less his boxers. Same holds true for Dane Cook.

4. I am a camera whore. I saw the interview last week of the white house photographer. I would give my left foot, ankle and all...to be in his shoe. *snort*

5. Putting my dog down on Friday- just thinking about it all week without losing control, is the hardest thing I've ever had to do-or a close second. I think I'd prefer that it was sudden. And the fact that her spirits are far better since I made the appointment makes it 10x worse. Does that always happen? or seem so?

6. I'm starting school again. Tonight actually. Again- I'm determined. For now.

7. I collect shells and sand, from various beaches. I have a jar in my bathroom containing shells and sand from beaches from Mexico, Caymen, Bahamas, Key West and South Carolina. It's fun.


I got this text from my daughter yesterday after school. She watched the inauguration for an hour and a half on Tuesday- I was not quite as fortunate. We had picture but no volume. It was useless. Anyhow, she felt inspired...it's apparent.

Do you no wat obama wants most of people? .....community service. Do you think that (animal control officer friend) Manny can help me see if i can maybe volenteer at an animal shelter?

I will do anything in my power to make sure this happens, even if I (being over 18) have to volunteer with her.

She later said it gives her a good feeling just to be around animals and help them.

*warm and fuzzy* I have a wonderful, thoughtful, caring and loving kid!

PROLONGING THE INEVITABLE

So, I have decided (and I wanted to say "collectively" but really I have no one to concur with me because it is only my decision) that Kobi will be sent off to the heavens on friday. I get choked up writing about it, but it is best for all. She's just not "living" anymore. She really just exists. She hops along on 3 legs to the door to go out, then back to her bed. She gobbles up her food, then back to her bed. When the door opens and we walk in, she doesn't jump up to greet us anymore. Her tail wags and slaps off the bed profusely and she smiles (anyone that knows Kobi knows that she does actually smile) and she waits for us to walk over to give her love. No more zest, vibrance, love for life. No more running around like a dog should do. There is no reason more to put her thru misery.

We had a visit with the vet on Friday and she's starting with what looks like it will end up an edema which is ultimately not good. She was no longer taking morphine pills, better yet, she wasn't eating anything, so in turn...I could not give her the pills. Not even if I had a rare, red and juicy steak sitting in front of her. The pills put her so out of it she would whine upon exhale. The dr's swore up and down there was no way on 160 mgs of morphine that she could be in any pain, but I hated hearing it all day. Once asleep she just snored her way into the next day and wouldn't move til it was time to eat or go out. Morphine was no longer working.

The vet gave her a Fentinal (sp) patch around her opposite ankle, which slowly pumps pain meds into her body, kinda like a tobacco patch. No more whining, she's like a new dog again, eating and drinking and going outside, but that's it. We lay on the floor with her and snuggle up more, but the inevitably it's time. The patch was $83.00 and has to be put on AT the vet. When I left they made an appointment for 5-6 days out. I asked why. The patch only lasts 5-6 days. That's another $83.00. If I had to do it to keep her alive, that'd be different. I cannot see paying $83.00 a week (not even a week) to keep her pain away UNTIL she dies, as miserable as she is. She hasn't put her leg down since Thanksgiving. Really, even paying the money for HER would be selfish of ME.

She will visit the beach again. I plan to have her creamated. Every time we go on vacation where there is a beach I will bring a part of her with us and sprinkle them there. She won't miss a thing.

TMI TUESDAY

I am having the time of my life. I am very happy today, quite content. I do have worries, and cares...and I'm not perfect, but today...I can honestly say I am taking steps for the better. I am not on any meds (other than prilosec for my hiatal hernia) and I am seeing a Professional Training and Life Coach. I guess you can say she's a therapist in a way, because we work on everything, but not like I have major depression issues, just coping skills and life things. I personally think this is a good thing for everyone. I've learned alot in a little time, about myself and the changes I *can* make, and about others and the changes I cannot make, as much as they are needed. Right now I am learning to recognize the negative actions, people, but mostly *thoughts* in my life and trying to stop them before they start. I need to be more positive. This is a good thing!

I have decided right now I am not going private on my blog. I think whatever I need to say can be said right here. I have nothing to hide. I'll just start letting it all out, not that I never was before...but I never really get TOO personal. Well, today that all changes. I am dating a guy who is totally head over heels for me and he's great in bed, too. I know that's something only a select one (perhaps two) might have REALLY been interested in knowing. Well, now YA KNOW so there's no more wonder. And he means the world to me and is genuine and sincere about it. That is all I have about that right now.

I don't dig jealous people. I think jealousy is the most lethal emotion. Jealousy just shows people how much you truly hate yourself. Read that again- because it couldn't be more true. That's the worst way to be and you can't hide it's uglyness. If you want something, work for it. If you lost something, it's likely you GAVE UP. I fight for what I want and what I have. Nothing was ever GIVEN to me. If I have something, it's because I earned it, worked for it, cherished it or someone cared enough about me to allow me to have it, including a friendship. How can you hate someone else because they're wanted by someone you once wanted that didn't want you? How can you point the finger at and judge someone when you really should be looking in the mirror? I would go to the ends of the earth for my daughter and never ever thought of giving up for one second, yet their are parents (including my own's donor) who just thinks it's not a big deal to leave the burden on someone else. I can't understand how a parent would not want that closeness from their kid. Then don't go blaming your kid later when they don't want that closeness from you! My donor should take note of that.

Hypocrisy makes me sick to. Say one thing is so wrong, but yet you do it or say it yourself in your next breath. How do you chastise someone for something, yet in such similar ways you are no different than they are? I am not innocent of judging people and I am far from perfect, but it makes me sick when one's entire life revolves around dumping on people to make themselves feel worthy of someone or something.

Ok, enough of just two of the few things that bother me. I won't even get into racism. Kobi dog is still kickin', although she is mainly loungin' around high on morphine these days. She's got one more option and I'm pretty close to that route now, a pain patch on her leg. Not sure how long that will last but it's only a matter of time. We've prepared ourselves and I don't think she'll make it to spring like I'd hoped, for one more beach trip. :( I am praying, but it doesn't seem that way. This week she's done minimal eating and I keep having to variate her food for her to eat, and she's now managed to sniff out pills, even capsules, so I'm having a hard time hiding them in anything. It sucks!

I've recently talked to my BF about adopting another dog. There are dogs rescued every day and I'd like to rescue another as I did Kobi dog. I've done some searchin and I have my eyes set on this one:

Her name is Midget (which I hate) and she's a rescue. I've already got an application for adoption in at this shelter and I'm ready. They are still running behavioral tests and getting her up to date on shots and my animal control president/cop friend has been frequently in touch with me on how she's doing and is going to speak to the previous owner tomorrow and let me know what she's got to say about her temperment. I'm hoping since Kobi is very good with other animals and this dog has been around many others, that she will be ok. Time will tell and I will take it from there...I am trying NOT to be negative. I don't look at it as replacing my dog, I think she'll appreciate a friend when she's alone, and this small one may be able to pick some good habits up from Kobi dog, since she's such a good girl.

Now for your TMI.

1. On a scale of 1-10, how satisfied are you with your sex life?
*Right now I couldn't be happier. I'd say 10.

2. If someone shoves you up against a wall while kissing you, your reaction is?
*I think that's hott, at the right moment. Don't dare do that to me when I'm pissed off!

3. What is the most romantic thing anyone has ever done or said to you?
*I like when someone surprises me- the Vermont Teddy Bear out of nowhere topped the cake recently. I am told I'm beautiful every day.

4. Where is the most unusual place you have ever had sex?
*Petco. No, really.

5. How do you liked to be kissed?
*soft and sensually

Bonus (as in optional):Most embarrassing sexual moment?
*I'd say falling off the bed. It was embarassing for about 2 seconds, REALLY- then it was hysterical. Personally I've never had actual noisy gas during sex but I've felt the urge. Luckily I've been able to avoid it, but I can imagine that to be the most embarassing moment for anyone.

Didja play?

IF MY BLOG WENT PRIVATE

...would you want to read? Would you ask for the password so you could read my posts? Do you think they'd get more juicy. Perhaps *everyone* has *somethin* to hide.

Why do you read me?